i wonder what its all about

Waiting sucks. Waiting for anything and anyone is one of the top annoying things. I’m never purposely fashionable late so as to avoid the act of waiting and in turn rather be waited on, but I must admit I’d rather have frantic nerves from my own tardiness rather than someone else’s because I realize that I have minimal patience for such things. Waiting for e-mails suck too. My mailbox is filled daily with tons of club planet and velvet list updates so I’m never on empty in that respect. But you know, when someone emails you, it indicates on main particular important thing…that they are alive. That’s really all I need to know these days, the rest is trifle and can be revealed later.

My Dad was watching Saving Private Ryan the other night and you know what? I had to leave the room. I’ve watched that movie several times before but this time it just was making me really uncomfortable.

So…regarding word on other updates I’ve decided I’ve been too lazy lately. Don’t get me wrong, every weekend has been another great club and bar nights. My Tuesday and Thursday night contained two great concerts both of which I wouldn’t have necessarily wandered to myself but with the suggestion of friends it was neat to see something new and different. Falu was an ecclectic group from around the world but a modern Indian base, Murder By Death was this dark/folk/semi-metal sound who originated from…Indiana. I think what interested me most was the crowd in Williamsburg for MBD..I was one of two blondes there, the other happened to be the cellist performing. Everybody else was dark and broody, though let looks surprise you cause they were quite the fun and friendly crowd. But nobody was fist pumping or jumping all around. I felt I had to consciously keep the dancing under control or someone would bite me. well, this week between India/Indiana I got my globe covered.

And now its Friday and the weekend again! I just need to get out of my rut and away from this lazyness….I have projects I’ve been meaning to taken on I just haven’t had the motivation. I havent been to the gym enough. I did another painting though which came out decent….and lately I’ve just been reading van Gogh’s letters and paging through his stuff. I decided that my favorite phase of his work was when he was in Saint-Remy…his rockiest time mentally when he was at the asylum…hehehe I need to find out why I can relate to those most!!!!