in the end, its all about the friends that stand by you

its not like all year we haven't thought back to all the months past. today i got to thinking about summer orientation weekend and the first night up at scranton. everything seemed new and cool. some stuff about me is still the same. like when people asked stuff about me i recall talking about my time at sound factory (the nyc club, not actually the house here) in the meantime that club closed down years ago, but now it is suppose to re-open....re-open when i come back home for real!. i remember telling new scranton people about europa (still go there) and poland and all that. so some interests are still the same and actually they've grown. but then i think about my views on life and how much has changed. i def saw the world with rose colored glasses back then. i probably got some of the greatest learning experiences through all my nursing clinicals. i must've met way over a hundred people who shared their life story with me during my rotations or service learning hours, and all the hurdles theyve crossed. and i've grown along with the hardships of my fellow peers as well. over the years we had all kinds of changes at home for instance my house is completely renovated, i no longer have a dog, i had knee surgury, and there were other family issues that we're still dealing with. of course everybody's got something and such is life. its naive to think time would stand still and nothing would change. but is it naive to think that there ought to still be so much more than this? i'm dissappointed in some things that i thought would work out different. in the end i realize that there are many things completely out of my control. the emotional availability of others is one of those things. and that is a big let down.

simultaneously i look around at all the great things around me. these glm chicas have such a spunk to life that revives everything for me too. and where would i be without some other characters in my life that have stood by from the start when we were wandering the halls of glm as freshmen ourselves. and really, do others have it that much better than this?



SweetSosh: you know what random thought just went thru my mind
SweetSosh: imagine being the pope's friend
SweetSosh: like his childhood friend they keep talkin about
Destiny846: soshek, i never thought of that
SweetSosh: like what do u say oh my best friend is JP II
SweetSosh: like how i say oh my best friend is natters
Destiny846: i suppose it be just like that
Destiny846: when they say bye, maybe they say "peace out"