real sleep at last on a thursday!!

so today was something of a typical day in all its scrantonic unusualness. i spent the morning touring a prison and an afternoon at a cerebral palsy clinic. i felt a little tired from the escapades from the night before but proceded throughout the day with coffee and did not even nap.

i got to thinking, amidst the prison cells and the boring talk on new medical appliances (sorry, it sucked and i've seen all that stuff before), about how easily one can live two separate opposing lives. in one manner i seek to work hard at my therapeautic communication skills and work to the best of my abilities with people. Then how quickly i revert backwards and somehow manage to get myself in a communication-block. it is a fact that with some people you may as well speak to a stone wall (or should i say a stoned wall?). other times its easier to teach a monkey rocket science rather than getting some people to tell you what is going on with them.

and then i got to thinking that maybe before i bitch and moan about those that can't step up to the plate, i ought to make sure i can do it myself.

to quote someone's blogging:
While you are out there deciding, the sun is burning away, and the earth is hurdling through space at millions of miles per hour.
Which is why you must live like you mean it: right here and now you must step up to the plate, no time for second thoughts or second guessing oneself. The time is almost up.

and with some inspiration from a chat from the lovely Janine Howard I decided that there's no need to push things off and wait to see what catastrophe hits next.



i stepped up to the plate.




and made a decision!


and though this decision is predicted to close a door thats been losely swaying open in the wind, it is something that i felt i needed to do.


though really, who can predict anything these days. and when one door closes another one may open but then you realize that there were also windows and chimneys and even holes punched straight through walls and so who really cares about that damn closed door anyway its second tier and besides, doors are NEVER locked in Scranton.


but today i know i did something right!