first real weekend of second semester
I made it to Friday! I felt like a walking definition of anxiety this whole week. I never get stressed out on tests. Papers don't usually phase me that much because I like to write. Nevertheless this week everything came on at once. I guess it is different because I have all my three nursing clinical rotation lectures going on at the same time (the past three years we've had one two, and one was for seven weeks and then the other took its place). so its actually hard to remember what class i'm suppose to be going to! at the same time i'm also trying to squeeze in my licensing exam review (haven't started yet) and get some more progress on my future career. plus i need to concentrate on the regular schoolwork at hand. my first day at CMC went better than I imagined it would. I did enough research on my preps to know what was going on. And since I haven't been around my floor so much since I've been on the road or in the hospital I made some fruit snacks covered in chocolate for the McCormick/Gannon girls and we at least got to see each other for a few moments.....and chocolate+strawberries=yummyness.
so wait; why am i anxious now? senior year? i think it is because i no longer have a fallback and i'm expected to have it all together. i think its possible i sort of do have it together. but then once i assume that something falls apart....so ok, no jinxing anything tonight; i do repeat, i survived the week.
i always like being busy and juggling alot on my plate but this time dissappearing to a nice warm island seemed to be the best solution. but i was reminded again that all obstacles have some kind of path around them, even if it means hurling yourself into some pretty nasty challenges. Assuming I passed my dosage calc. test a second time around and I'm still enrolled in clinicals, i got done what i needed to do with a little schedule re-routing. And one thing for sure the adrenalin rush at the end of a really busy day makes you not only feel great but makes you want to attempt 10,000 other things.
And thats the way I like it.
so wait; why am i anxious now? senior year? i think it is because i no longer have a fallback and i'm expected to have it all together. i think its possible i sort of do have it together. but then once i assume that something falls apart....so ok, no jinxing anything tonight; i do repeat, i survived the week.
i always like being busy and juggling alot on my plate but this time dissappearing to a nice warm island seemed to be the best solution. but i was reminded again that all obstacles have some kind of path around them, even if it means hurling yourself into some pretty nasty challenges. Assuming I passed my dosage calc. test a second time around and I'm still enrolled in clinicals, i got done what i needed to do with a little schedule re-routing. And one thing for sure the adrenalin rush at the end of a really busy day makes you not only feel great but makes you want to attempt 10,000 other things.
And thats the way I like it.
posted by Nateration @ 11:19 PM
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